Thanks for replies guys @TAB @Former-Member @saturnzoon
You are so insightful SG. I have been having intensity today. I know it's stuff that needs to come out, it's really not fun & it's hard work on my body, spirit.
I want to apologise for being a downer, that brightness in people around me is helping, & it hurts, that I am not there.
I think apologising, is not right. It's kind of saying that sad emotions are not acceptable.
And then, - idk, it is difficult to be around person who is sad. It can bring other person down.
I am at my only friends house rn. He has a friend come over - the friend said to me, ' I can chill out for the day."
I think that was very kind & perceptive.
Sad & hurt exists. I can't choose when it is going to appear. I can't run from it. I have to let it have it's time. At least, I think that's what I do. I honestly do feel guilty - a burden.
I have taken proactive steps & have 2 actions I can take over next few days.
They are about facing the DV & getting help.
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