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[MDT]

I do have some thoughtful male friends around the place. Which is good.

But I must admit that I prefer the solitude of my own company when it fomes to these things

Lately I have got back into TV shows. Watching season 4 of Babylon Berlin has got me thinking a lot. In a healthy way. I mean its a creative outlet nonetheless. Not one I get to create myself, but at the very least it is one I can engage in critically.

Its a start. It's better than getting stuck in my own universe of problems. The part of me that wants to fix the problems and challenges also needs a rest.

Maybe it's the cool air ? Maybe this has got me changed for the good.

Who knows.

@Appleblossom L'tranger I think is the French title. Yeah I know what you mean about surrounded by ignorance. I mean in the home ignorance was hard - dad was/is very informed on a matter of things. I think this fed into me unconsciously. I am thankful for it. My mum gave me grit and cynicism. A good combo somehow.

Yes today's male 20 something archetype is not someone whom I identify with.

Occurred to me long ago. But recently was reinforced when a friend from Melbourne came up to Sydney. He was staying at a hostel and I went on the pub crawl too. Bunch of 20 somethings. Was interesting for bit that even within that age range there was diversity of type. Added some Scottish guy on instagram. Based on interesting conversations. Probably won't talk again. But no big deal.

Thats life. I'm sure many young men right now are meeting their peers in war in ukraine wondering if they will live to see their future. I'm continually hit by that conflict because of its proximity to a place I went to (Poland).

We have an animalism to us as humans. Once we accept this, we have a chance to control it.

Peace to you all and til next time

[hanami]

❤️ @StanD 

[Former-Member]

@StanD I'm so sorry you are having to process all this stuff. Some of the most beautiful people I've met wound up in invidious situations having to face stark realities and emptiness - it is not pleasant or even welcome but certainly makes the soul grow. But we can also grow when surrounded by loving care which is a newer age version of transformational growth - much better than an outdated Piscean Age variety. I wish this for you.

Its hard out there right now. Saturn in the skies is doing a retrograde dance and there is heaviness on the ether. Saturn is also a great teacher.  When he goes retrograde we have to learn our life lessons through our trials and tribulations. You may feel sad, depressed, sluggish, stuck and unable to move forward as the father of time is against us when he is retrograde. I think he's going direct in early November.  But yes we can feel like the life is conspiring against us literally. 

I will be using a crystal support combo such as amethyst and sunstone to banish my depression, hopelessness, heaviness and sorrow because of the life circumstances that are presenting beneath the retrogrades of Saturn (and Pluto). I strongly encourage you to alchemize your energy field with these divine crystal energies that resonate with royal star Regulus (Sunstone) and Revelation-grade spiritual protection-connection (Amethyst).

Don’t live in dread or sorrow, use the crystal tools that God seeded into the Earth. When you live your frequency your entire future lifts in accordance. If you are new to crystal energy benefits check for real world feedback on how crystals have benefited others and how to work with them properly to optimise their benefits.

[Appleblossom]

@StanD 

Sorry you had worrying communication with your lawyer. 

You have such a lot going on different realms ... I am not sure what to say.... 

@Former-Member is wonderfully supportive.

Love that you steam vegies ... I used to ... when I cooked for 5 or more, but not lately ... tho my son said he was not eating meat today ... some say that the only constant is change ... I do hope the path unfolds for you with enough good in a sustainable way.

[StanD]

Hello All,

@Appleblossom @Former-Member @MDT @TAB @MDT 

Apologies @MDT , I am behind on reading your recent post - I know it will have good stuff in it. 

I quickly wanted to say thankyou for the supports & kind words. 

I didn't want to go off radar & be dramatic! It's cool I have friends on here❤️ No family, so you guys are my family I choose.

Well .... I found piece of paper (i.e Will) I don't know what to say - my mind dreamt up memories of what was written on it. It's the last nail in the coffin. I'm done. I have no rights to stay living in house.

I could possibly go to another lawyer for second opinion, however, I definately don't have money to waste. My brain is finished.

NDIS have started becoming involved in my life since this morning. They are updated on my situation. It is good to have professional support. I don't know what anyone can do, I don't see any answers. Honestly, I can't bare to think our talk about it ever again. Possibly irresponsible - it's how I feel. Finished.

I didn't 'win' in eyes of law & I don't know what future brings in terms of living.

I did win.

I got him out of my life. I protected myself. I survived.

If that is all there is for me - it's enough. 

Invidious @Former-Member yes (thx Google) unfair, unjust. I absolutely refuse to let loss of legal matters, become part of my identity, or story. It is disappointing.

On another level - would I really want his money? Or house? A lifetime reminder?

I have a victory, he will never experience.

Maybe, there is person out there, even more in need than me? Maybe life, gave them a legal win & now they ( & maybe children) can live freely without fear?

I am thankful for all your support & thoughtful words. I can feel the love & care through my screen. Thankyou for beautiful picture @Appleblossom 

I was in a new to me, Crystal shop Thursday @Former-Member I wonder if that's when you were writing to me. I bought a chakra stone chip bracelet (with amethyst) - I always wear amethyst, & not Sunstone (tho I did pick one up) but I bought lumerian crystal, new to me - it has a golden warmth I really liked. I'm wearing it now.

I stated reading my book too, Wheels Of Life. Wow, what an impressive purchase. Thankyou❤️❤️ Apple & S_🦎

I was very depressed last night. Today, after chatting with NDIS, I chose to leave it all behind - at least for weekend. I don't have energy to stress & I don't know where to go. I plan to go back to church on Sunday.

Thanks everyone. Wishing you have enjoyable, serene weekend.

You are special (roomie) 🛂 passport emoji?

[StanD]

Oops, I meant to tag you @hanami & not hams 3x!

[TAB]

okay I'm a bit lost @StanD  don't spend too much time on it though, I havent been keeping up. Thought I saw the other day you were in a relationship w someone but couldnt have half the house or sole occupancy. Now its down to some Will ,that you just happened to find, who died ? who is the executor?  anyway hope you find somewhere to live (roomie)

[Appleblossom]

Oh Dear. Glad you did not drop off with posting @StanD but there is no pressure.

Big Changes ahead maybe, but not completely on your own.

NDIS can be a lot to get used.  I took a long time to get used to the idea of MY CHOICE and CONTROl... it may help your eligibilty in housing schemes ... You might be able to shed ... all the unwanted memories and move forward.

Glad you think the book is good.  

[Former-Member]

Hello @StanD wanted to share the story of one woman Kye Crow, I know off facebook who originally travelled to India and everything of hers was stolen. No money no nothing and she was alone. Her only choice was to rely on the generosity of strangers and everywhere she went she was able to get her needs met and she eventually wrote a book about it.

Fast forward 30 years later she has been operating an animal sanctuary of 50 wild animals plus 8 camels, horses, parrots etc based on faith that her needs would be met. They don't run a business as such - people just donate hay and food on facebook. She also makes gorgeous clothes to sell on facebook which are snapped up very quickly. They have no way of making a regular income and just rely on the generosity of strangers. They have been operating this way for 30 years which is hard to believe but true

I wanted to share with you her website. I want you to be encouraged that life can have benevolent forces when all may seem lost.  We can all learn something from Kye Crow and the metaphysic that weaves through her life. Please check this out I think you will love it. Even for only interest sake alone. I encourage you to challenge the self talk that says "you are finished and done" and replace it with a new phrase until your subconscious accepts it which will have more bearing on your situation. Say it over and over, despite the subconscious resistance. You subconscious will be kicking and screaming but it will eventually become the truth for you and your circumstances will reflect that.

Here is her website: https://www.arkheart.love/

[StanD]

Hey @TAB (roomie) thankyou for chatting. Hope things with you are good. I've not caught up on any of your life lately. Please tag me in Tabaluga's if you want 😥

Rainy & cold in Melb today. Listening to SBS chill. Not bad. Can hear sounds of wet tyres against tar road, thru front window opp. me. All tyres, not much engine sounds.

Are you still watching 🐑 on TV?

I watched Mysteries at the Museum - doco show on Rush. I was so comfortable I didn't want to move.

Fascinating history about poss. real Romeo & Juliet, friends of Shakespeare's; the first flight simulator that nobody believed in; journalism, propaganda, misquoting well respected scientist & how it public believed peanut oil was cure for polio.

I have not had shower & been not good at brushing pegs. I'm going to try & have bath later. No energy to stand.

Hope you are cosy.